72. Featuring of a Me-sense

The universe or the world appears to humans relatively or absolutely ( so as to say). In other words, there are two ways to view the world. One as 'real', like we normally see, where in, we are real individuals and the world or Universe if full of objects. It is more of a feeling than a seeing. The other is when whatever appears, 'feels' apparent, as if time and space were not independent reality, and the whole of 'seeing' is featured, along with a 'feel' to feel it real. In the absence of the 'feel' about the world, being missed out in the featuring of the world, only wholeness is seen or felt as ONE. 

Everybody or almost all humans, experiences a feel of individuality, as if there is a person to the body. The reality of this feeling is also the cause for reality of the the outside world, the cause being featuring of this 'feel' to the so called mind. This goes unquestioned for a life time, until it is questioned accidentally. This questioning of the ‘self feeling’ to the body, comes about in many ways, due to reading spiritual books, accidentally coming across ‘persons’ that have dealt with this syndrome  or even just like that for no apparent reason. All this, is part of what we are being featured as.

In one sense, the ‘me sense’ is felt inside the head, assuming that thoughts seemingly take place there. It is one reason that you feel tall, as if few feet from the ground. We say we are five feet six inch tall, it’s because we feel ourselves in the head. Due to some reason like getting enlightened, the ‘me sense’ may drop to the chest. Ramana used to speak of the self being situated on the right side of the heart.  In such a case, you would feel shorter by two feet and this would make no sense and would result in ‘not feeling’ a me-sense at all, which seems to be the case for awakening.

The sense of doership is the feel of a me sense. ‘Karma’ is associated with a sense of doership. Thoughts keep coming to the mind, as if a ‘me’ as  a doer was looped into the thoughts. More the thoughts, pertaining to oneself, keeps the me-sense centred to the body. This is a matter of habit or practice or simply conditioning. To a large extent, it will drop off, when it is seen that, bodies are operated by life, with no centre at all and all doing is ‘life’s’ doing, as if a common intelligence for the whole of creation.

All doing, is life doing- ‘as all’. Life features humans defending the fiction that they are individual and real. The whole human race is featured feeling individual, as if they had free will and choice. Life talks humans, walks humans etc, and makes it impossible for ‘anyone’, ( that is not) to know if what is featured is true or false. Its only with a some analysis, that it is noticed that all talk and actions are initiated through thoughts, which one has no idea,as to how it comes about. With some small analysis, one finds it difficult to grasp, how he got hold of a new idea, or grasped a new language etc or how intelligence cannot be ‘owned’.

Being featured as individual persons or forms with a ‘me-sense’ becomes more clear, when the mind gets into searching for the ‘me’ itself. The mass hallucination plays an important role, to make the featuring seem real. The extraordinary behaviour of consciousness or intelligence itself, seems ordinary, so as to say.

The ‘me-sense’ is thus a fiction. It doesn’t exist. It feels true because it is featured to feel true. Dropping away of ‘me-sense’ is what is sought in ‘seeking’ which fails again because seeking must have a ‘me-sense’ to seek, which is part of the ‘featuring’ of waking state. The whole creation of waking state is just a contract to the whole featuring of the dream state. In the dream, the dream character is more ‘light’ and more detached of having any sense of ‘me’ and so is featured not so continuous on a day to day basis.

Me-sense must make you feel contracted to the body. Its makes you feel heavy as if, gravity was only due to ‘me-sense’.  It comes at a age of 5 months to one year, when the ‘you’ is born and drops accidentally for ‘some’ midway or a few minutes before clinical death. So there is a chance to die before you die, but accidental as no death in one’s hand. It is featured too.

Seeking material gain or comfort like wealth and power, psychological comfort like peace and bliss, avoiding pain, spiritual seeking etc etc, are filling time, pretending to be a doer. There is no getting out of being individual with free will and choice. It should happen to you. It is only a feeling of no me, which has to be featured, as if featuring sadness, emotions, anger etc, that is not in one’s control. One imagines that one can drop the ‘me-sense’ with a ‘me’ taking form to do this activity and like in all probable cases, there is a small element of success. However it cannot be taken to be a path or method, as there are many other probabilities that are ‘featured’ for awakening to come about.

So there is nothing to do, just be, while all is being is Being, being featured as if objects, including humans,  including being featured as ‘awakened’.

71. Space.

What can we say about space? It seems to be everywhere in the feeling of it and no-where as a object with a scientific proof that can substantiate its existence, other than people concluding so, without any other option.

Space can be thought of something as an absence. Absence of objects could be space. But there seems to be space in matter too. It is not displaced to accommodate matter. If we accept space as non- matter or an absence, then we have to accept an idea that matter seems to be moving in / present in non-matter or in absence, like planets in space.  Its like imagining, whatever is present is basically amalgamated in what is absent. That is a paradox.

The problem remains that space cannot be something. We are not displacing anything, when we move around freely. So space has to be ‘nothing’. Then we are back to square one that, everything is appearing to float around ‘in’ nothing.  Nothing is not a matter of discussion at all, because, nothing cannot be said to be ‘is’ or is not’ or present or absent. When space is nothing, how can ‘things’ seemingly  float in ‘nothing’. Nothing can float in things but something cannot float in nothing.

Space could be mental. If so, then all objects, floating in ‘mental’ cannot be physical. They have to be mental too.  May be they are.

So a simple thing like space, seems to exist, seems to exist as something that is non-existing in terms of grasping what it could be and seems to be ‘neither’, as there is no way of understanding space.

All possibilities of space seem to work well, only in a dream. Space can be seemingly there, but not there as something and neither, to be true. If all dream scenes are made of dream material, then all that is seemingly in space has to be space material. There seems to no place that is not space. This would be much like God, existing everywhere and as no-thing to be anywhere.

What if space was ‘life’ itself as far as waking state is concerned. What if space was the most intelligent thing or intelligence personified as space. What if space could become hard and colourful at will and makes up the seeming world, with movement ‘as if, things and objects were not ‘of’ space. The effect of a man moving can be designed by space, by just being hard, at will, seemingly in motion. What if, space was life that was talking  you, walking you etc even when it can ‘keep’ you in itself, like in the womb of the mother?

Nothing can be said about space because it is not tangible as an object. If we believe that space as such, that is not tangible, and is only an intelligence that seems to make an appearance of space, as if, it is there, and not there, then we can believe in such other possibilities as God and Consciousness also with such formats. In fact, it is impossible to know something like space, but its possible to accept that space ‘is’. Mental or physical or whatever cannot be known, but we are so immersed in space, but still unable to figure out its nature, attributes, intelligence etc, because we could be that space itself, if we let go the feeling of ‘me’ to the body. Then what we are, could be characterised with the likeness of space, making it purely a background to all appearances of the universe as if the objective nature of the space itself was the universe. Just like space is a basic requirement for objects to be ‘or’ not to be, Consciousness or ‘I am’ ness is the background for the appearance of world of forms, thoughts and emotions.

Space is the best simile to what we are as Consciousness. Is, is not and neither, without attributes.