103. Knowledge and 'me'.

This is a funny topic. All knowledge is to 'know'. To know is to understand or grasp or measure. So knowledge is a measurement or grasping. All meanings, data, logic etc are mind based and also memory based. Its the mind that has to grasp meanings and store them as knowledge. So grasp of meanings is actually meaning making of forms for conversion to objective reality. In fact objective reality, as separate from ‘me’ is taken as a basis, unquestioned, and mind works on this faith to make meaning of what is sensed, as if a real outside world, which also caters to fabricating a ‘real’ me inside. All this is basically mental though.

We read words and meanings seem to happen to them as if its the word that is fabricating the meaning and then giving it to us. So words 'become' meaningful. Similarly our intelligence is magical in making meanings to forms as if separate from the whole and thus objects start behaving as if they were really what we made out of them. So minds have the Supreme capacity to inject ‘thingness’ to forms. Intelligence can also relate oneself to such objectiveness, so as to complete the mesmerism of subject and object being separate from each other, even though all were just objects in the knowing including what seems to be a 'me' and what appears to be 'other than a me' implied as being the world. This takes shapes to include opinions like good and bad, desirable or undesirable, friends and enemies and such other opposites.
For the first time, as a child, it is difficult for the mind to make meanings as suggested by the mother, as there is no basis of individuality to the body. But repeated patterns of the mothers behaviour as if being separate from the child, help the mind to learn the game of separation as a psychic ability and the game of separation begins. Once the trick is learnt, it gets easier. Thus reality becomes a bundle of knowledge, basis on a real me and a real world of objects with time being real to make events in space also real. Space becomes another reality. So time and space, which are imagined basis, for grasping changing looks of 'now' into events of reality conceived by a 'me' , also gets a stamp of existence. The very tools that created a feel of reality, become independent realities within the conceived reality of imagination. Its a non-failing psychic game. The game is going on from the birth of the human species and will continue, unhindered to eternity. So will suffering as an effect of this cause of imagination, continue feeling real for eternity.

So all objective reality, including me and mine,accumulates as knowledge. All stories of reality or world, gets accumulated as acquired knowledge to memory. We seem to know all about the universe and that caters to hell of lot knowledge. Reasoning is also is a game fed to the mind, to make more knowledge and store as logic. However in the absence of an objective world, separate from us, all this knowledge becomes known as the primary cause of ‘bondage’ mainly due to ignorance. More the knowledge, more is the range of ignorance. So the complete universal play of events in time and space (which is just the changing forms is the frame of now ), seems to be  happening in ignorance, as if real. No body questions  the reality of realness because such a somebody to a body itself is questionable.

Within the hallucination of 'seeing' events in time and space, Knowledge is used as security. When it doesn’t seem to work, more knowledge seems to get churned out as to why it did not work. So even when there is good evidence that reality should be suspected or otherwise, we present the case to this intruder called reasoning or to knowledge and take a call. The bundle of knowledge, then plays havoc with life, as if one is in bondage with this body until death. At one stage when knowledge and reason cannot defend you, free action takes charge, as if without the ‘doer’, something like ‘reflex’ action, or that which is not really ruled by the mind. All types of games are featured in creation to hide the truth of what we are and at the same time it is also continuously pointing out to the hidden truth at the background of the theme, as if an open secret.

Intuition is a mechanism for direct living. It is as if the ‘soul’ takes charge of life and lives ‘you’ and keeps the 'assumed person' free. It plays itself all the time to unfold our next act. Knowledge interferes with intuition to rev up the scene with reasoning, creating a sense of 'me' and world, as if real with joy and suffering to take the play of life to its peak performance. We become a implicated victim, but its a light play as such a 'we' is just notional and not factual. There are no facts. It is a losing game, to come out of the trance of having a ‘me’, because the very effort generates a strength to the ‘me’ sense that wishes to remain forever in the game that life plays out, as separation. In fact knowledge and ‘me’ are connected. We can say, knowledge and so reason, creates ‘me’ and maintains the ‘me’ notionally, as if real to an extent that this knowledge starts ruling the ‘me’ like its ‘boss’. Its an intruder, working for itself that has been created in the form of ‘me’ and keeps messing around without your permission. This ‘me’ deserves nothing less than a complete dissolution, as it is the root of all desires ( followed by sorrows in the absence of meeting the desire). However to come to this situation, wherein ‘me’ should be dissolved, there must be some grace or utter surrender in terms of hopes that has been keeping the suffering of ‘man’ in continuity. The 'man' as a separate sense should end or dissolve or 'die', whatever one may call it. 

Can knowledge about reality lead us to know what we truly are? How can we get there?. This is a funny situation, wherein we want to get there, but such a 'there' is actually ‘here’. So the option left is to trust a Guru, who has been anchored in Truth for a while. These type of advisers ‘happen’ to you like all else happens in this universe and you find yourself trusting in what is being advised. You can then reach a place where in you are willing to dump knowledge on the platform, without having to despise it, as it carries your identity (of me) and go beyond knowledge to intuitive based knowing. This also grasps the absence of ‘me’ which can lead to knowing of 'presence' as 'immutable' sentience that is the essence of ‘all there is’.

So get real by knowing  if thingness to forms can be real or conceptual. This sets in a viral effect in the mind to re- cognise forms as forms with a light feel of no-thingness rather than a heavy conceptualisation of ‘reality’ to forms that ‘words’ depict them to be. Life becomes ‘lighter’ with this perspective and take you ‘Home’ to where you belong at the cost of losing your individuality or 'me-sense' to the body, that never was. Haha. Its a cosmic joke. Enjoy.