116. Mental Activity,

Mental activity is a play, that can cut you off from the reality, that is unfolding around you.  You can only know the damage that it can do, when life takes over, as ‘your’ absence, and involves you in the grandness of its play, Or else, getting damaged also becomes part and parcel of 'living'. 

The mental activity, cuts you off completely and places you in such imaginary world, that makes one difficult, even to be aware of one’s own stupidity, even while others keep pushing you to be get back to normal use of mind. This is an everyday play of human living, getting deteriorated day by day, by making the mental activity, take over your usable intellect or presence of mind, there by leading a deteriorated life style, full of unhappiness.Life starts to rot, in a way of speaking. Meaning, he will never be able to use his mental faculty to the fullest, or even to an average limit, which could shape his living in a fulfilled way.

Mind, is a precious gift of creation and we should use it, to soak the best of what life offers, rather than push life to make your mental activity take over the 'beingness' that you are, to a imaginary world, that you think, is hell. Its next to impossible, unless by grace, to move out of habitual thinking. But when we are eager to use the mind properly, it can steer oneself to play with it, and progress towards what best it can do.

Various examples could be illustrated of how the mind plays out, when it deteriorates or rots, because of not using the mind, for the best results. One small episode that I witnessed was as follows:

I went to meet a client for some business. He was trying to put too much effort in imagining many things at a time. And the scene went forward as this. The purchase man, came in to show him a problem that occurred, where the contents of a consignment expected, turned out to be ‘cotton and leather’ instead of a 'printed circuit board'. A huge drama was taking place around the wrong content form supplier. They were calling up the supplier abroad and forcing him to see the point, which for obvious reasons, he was missing out. I was handed over the invoice to be privy of the mistake by supplier. What I saw was very shocking. None of the data on the invoice, belonged to that company. The consignor, consignee, consignment, were all 'not' pertaining to my client at all. I showed him that he was wasting his time with that invoice, as it did not belong to him at all, and must be put into the trash basket. I failed in my effort. The next few minutes, was spent in having my tea, and I was ushered out, as they had a serious job in hand to change ‘Circuit board’to 'Cotton and Leather'. God knows from where the purchase guy, got hold of that paper and linked it to their requirement. They must have been work the whole night doing what was unnecessary. Its a lesson, that one can do very little in dealing with other minds. Most of the minds are conditioned mechanically, as if one is robotic and only reacting to sensations. If reactions, do not happen, as per the bad conditioning, they could make the next 'thought' as the ‘source sensation’ and start up the conditioned reactions, resulting in neurotic thinking.

How is it possible, that one cannot see the point, even when prodded or forced? This is the main question. Human minds are not ‘shapable’ by other minds, in certain directions, which should help them unlatch from neurotic psychosis. Its only ‘shapable’ towards it. At lest it seems so.

Same is with ‘Life’  as ‘creation’ or the words of a GURU. Its screaming from morning to night, to see itself as a ‘non-dual play’ or illusion as compared to reality, and not reality as in ‘duality’ as we think it to be. One doesn’t notice it, birth to death. Its the same as the above case. 

Life must be playing this crazy game, because, the crazier it gets, the humorous it becomes, for life to enjoy itself in ‘duality’.  

115. Meaning of / to Life.

All there is – is Life. What is happening is – 'life' happening or an expression of life. But due to whatever reasons, the mind of an individual, feels incomplete, compelling him, to seek a purpose or meaning to his life. All this is only when, he has not much work to do, and is caught thinking, to find a way out of frustration.

When I travel to office, with full faith in the driving skill of the driver, and when the destination as to where to go, is clear to him, I sink into reading some script on my hand phone. It could be a news item or a mail. There is full engrossment into it. After a while when I look up, there is just scenes passing, and no reference whatsoever to those scenes nor to any reference of 'where' I am, with respect to those scenes. It could have been a stretch, that I have crossed a thousand times. But there is no meaning there, because nothing is sought in there. When there is a thought, to know, where I am, the functioning of the mind, to make meanings, kicks in, and it takes a while to link into memory, synchronise the events that are happening to memory, bring about a meaning to the scenes outside, and also a meaning to 'a me', in reference to where I am. It makes 'me', while it makes the 'outside world'. If you ask me, what is the experience while the not knowing of the scenes were, about myself, I may answer, that there wasn’t a sense of me, but it would be entirely wrong to make such a statement, because, one cannot make out, what is the absence of a sense of ‘me’, unless there is a sense of me. So its a paradox, and the statement just comes out, as a recorded answer, just to convince the questioner.

So with that analogy, I could clearly say, that unless life plays out a ‘me’ and the 'outside world, apart from me', there exists nothing there, to have a purpose or a meaning. At best the purpose or meaning of ‘life’ could be to play the game of a ‘me’ and the 'other'. This, of course, IT does all the while, and That too successfully, as if fulfilling it’s plan. So in a way, if you want to play any game, of being a doctor or an engineer or a husband and father etc, you have a chance to engross yourself, into that play, positively or negatively, as if the purpose was to 'sink' into an engrossment, meaning, loving what you do. However, it would be also something that is happening, at that point of time, without being conscious of playing out that way.

Meaning to life, is an idea. We imagine that ideas are real things to achieve, and can give us a sense of fulfilment. This is just another idea. It keeps you in an engrossed loop and time passes effectively. After a while, it seems unsatisfying and there is a change to what we would next do, to satisfy our role more and more effectively. For some, the game can become, playing a victim, and the world has suddenly played itself out, to take out all the meaning to one’s life. There is more struggle than normal, to be out of such a situation, that doesn’t exist, and one goes deeper and deeper into one’s own hallucinated world.

So, purpose and meaning of life is an unpurposeful search. Its like a pawn on the chess board, trying to seek the purpose of life, even when the player, that is using the pawn, to just have fun, playing out chess. The purpose there is not to save the pawn or kill the pawn, but to simply play the game out of the love for the game. When the game is over, all moves are forgotten, and the game is also forgotten.

So just know, that all there is –is life, and do whatever you love to do the most, depending on if such a thought arises there or not, without getting into what one should do or not do. No rules are right or wrong. All is done only to ensure that the reaction of such doing, doest hurt you or any other, and there is a sense of ‘being’ in the doing, seemingly purposeful. 

114. Knowledge and Reality

Knowledge is a set of ideas, passed on by human species, over the past, as if that this species, is knowledgeable.  All species have knowledge of survival. But human species, living in groups, need to do more than that, as if they were the most intelligent of all species on this universe. And so the game of duality is passed on, to make 'group survival' a part of creation, as 'reality'and it's here to stay.

Knowledge is based on ‘Logic’. Logic is a way to grasp what apparently exists and also what does not exist at all. Brightness and darkness are grasped as day and night. God, death, space, time, etc is grasped as an absence etc.etc. To achieve such grasping, the mind, which is a software by itself, programmes itself.  So it uses a concept called ‘ time’ to interpret change and uses another concept called ‘cause’ to interpret an effect. It even uses 'space', an absence, as a background, for 'forms' as 'things' 'present'. By doing so, ‘time’ and ‘cause’ become the initial reality, which are basically concepts of grasping or ‘logic’ forming tools or the foundation for experiencing the 'world' of objects. So we learn to question ‘why’ , as if it could have an answer and also ‘when’. All answers to such questions limit themselves with ifs and buts, and assumptions or presumptions.

Lets take electricity for an example. All of us, feel its effects only. The energy, the shock, the light, the torque, the TV pictures, the mobile sounds, etc etc. And we say, that all of has its source, in electricity. So we create electricity as an idea or a concept, as an ‘imagined’ cause or source, to all these effects. The ultimate source can never be known or experienced, because there isnt one, 'objectively'. Subject, being only a reversal of 'objects' therefore, goes 'out' with it. Only the effects will be known. However we learn to grasp or experience with the help of our knowledge, taking for granted that such a ‘thing’ as ‘source’ exists, in the way, we say, something should exist, and we experience ‘its concept’ rather than the source itself. The source is an absence. You cannot experience it. What can be a ‘content of experience’ in consciousness, cannot be the source. So we can never ever experience the ultimate source.  Life is the source of all that is, but only experienced as its ‘creation’ or ‘effect’ or what  is said to be ‘an expression of the ultimate source’, rather than the source itself.

Another simple example is the experience of the ‘sky’. We experience, what we know as ‘the sky’. It is blue in colour and is like the background for all that is above our head, not rooted to the ground. But sky is an empty space or an absence of objective matter. Then how does one experience that which does not exist?, simply by a mental inversion of absence to a presence. So we say that ‘space’ exists. We also give colour to something that doesn’t exist. This is the reality, imposed on us by the society, or science, or the 'past'.

So how do we experience, whatever that is, that we experience.  The mind has all the knowledge that has been passed on since generations. We know all that ever is, in this universe, to the extent that we experience them. In other words, we experience, everything though the help of knowledge. In the absence of knowledge, we cannot experience anything. What we experience therefore is the knowledge of the thing and not the thing. Knowledge of the thing, is the thingness to form. There is no other ‘thingness’ to any form. All forms are empty of thingness. We imagine that shape is the thing, by projecting the knowledge to what we ‘sense’, shape being a major share of the concept, and thereby experience the concept of the things, rather than the things itself.

No-one can ever experience a sensation without knowledge.  Even to say 'pain' to the sensation, it must have knowledge as its background. Or else, one would say, i am feeling something that I cannot tell, and so communication would end. 

Knowledge or concepts to forms, are simply our ideas about them, for purpose of experiencing the world. There is no other way we can experience the world of objects. Also there is no other tool, by which an ‘objective’ experience can be had. So all reality is simply the knowledge that we have about them and knowledge is not a solid thing. The ‘person’ to the body is also the thingness to this form, or simply a concept. So we project what we know of human forms and experience them as people. Thus reality is purely a mental exercise of grasping, and called 'the creation', that is based in knowledge. Knowledge by itself is simply an accumulation of beliefs, or 'general agreements' or 'society'.. Thus beliefs passed on by the society, tradition, culture etc etc, is knowledge. So 'reality' of the world is - 'the reality, forced on us', by society, tradition, culture etc. There is no other reality. The ‘ultimate reality or truth’  is simply a myth, placed on us by the society. There isn’t an ultimate reality. Even if there was, you cannot experience it, as it is a concept, outside of ‘knowledge’, as per the scriptures. So we seek to 'know' what is called 'unknown' or God. We would have to 'make up' fictitious concepts and experience such realities, calling them 'mystical'. Its a pure 'bullshit'.  

So we seek and seek until, it dawns on us, that there isn’t an 'unknown' or source 'to achieve'. And then seeking stops.  The sense of a ‘me’, as an individual to the body, is based in ‘seeking’ and this will also come to an end, whenever the seeking dynamics stops. It then dawns on ‘us’, that such a ‘thing’ called ‘me’, was simply the ‘want’ or ‘seeking’ to know, to grasp etc etc., that generated such a ‘seeker’ and the seeking & seeker was simply one movement.

Hence that clarity, about ‘reality’ being conceptual gets cleared. So the world is ‘unreal’ or conceptual. Reality doesn’t mean a thing. Nothing can exist, without ‘you’. This is the only reality, as if ‘you’ and ‘existence as reality’ or the 'world', are many names to 'one' ‘being, that is simply 'not' objectively. Its only a 'knowing intelligence' and plays out as 'being creation'.