Sunday, 18 May 2014

105. Pure or Real Existence.


In reality only Consciousness exists. Its the power to 'know' or the knowing activity.The essence of all that ‘appears’ to exist is purely the knowing of it. It can be conceptualised to be an essence or as a source and named Consciousness, as if to be some kind of 'physical matter'. This Matter being a FACT or 'matter of fact 'is another thought. In the meaning that we put to the word ‘exist’, pure existence or consciousness - is the only thing that doesn’t exist as something physical (or non physical like thought ). Being that ‘thing’ that doesn’t exist, its very light or as heavy as “light”. That’s what we truly are. The very light of consciousness that is very light. No burden. How light can ‘something’ be that doesn’t exist in the ‘measurable’ sense?. How light can ‘nothing’ be? Zero. Even zero assumes that its something measurable. So we are very light, lighter than light could weigh. That’s what freedom is. That’s what life is, as we, if only thought did not distort it to be what it thinks we are. We are like the weight of space or the burden of an non-entity to be burdened. That’s what we all in our pure essence and are when we are ‘not’ as a person or body or engineer or ‘person’. Just pure Neti Neti.

Existence of anything as a matter of fact, involves time. It should exist in time. Creation always presents itself as change. Nothing stays unchanged, except that which knows change, 'being the power to know'. A change actually cannot exist. What exist is something in stillness or when it is still. If time was cut into very very small pieces, until it was so small, that change could not take place, then, that frame of creation existed at that point of time. Not before and not after. Or else, we would have to say that, such and such existed or will exist in future. Its pure logic to assume so. A small change in a painting is not the same painting. Its a fresh new painting. So is creation. Stills of fresh new creation all the time, born-ing and dying, along with the moment of time. Time is not separate from its content. Time is a dimension of measure. Like area includes length, volume includes area, so that time include volume and there by all its content. So origin of the next microsecond, is to say, the death of the previous microsecond with all its contents. 

So we cannot be sure of the 'existence' of a 'change', unless we are able to measure the past and the future, like the legs of a 'divider' measuring distance between two points, NOW. The only way that such a measure can happen is in the mind. Only mind can help to 'fix change' in the 'NOW' to make a measure and KNOW it. That's its job. Mind is the tool to make feel change is existing, by making its measurement in time, NOW, in this moment of stillness. That's the magic of life. The whole creation is mental material, appearing physical using thought to project the thingness to shapes and 'events' to change, as a magical machine that can project knowledge to sensations. So we see and enjoy our knowledge as if in shapes separated out n creation. Its a complex game played out simply by 'Life'. So existence as an element of change is a mental construct rather than a physical existence. Hence existence as change is non-existent and paradoxically, change is the only thing that exists. Where, in mind of course, and so be it, as if hiding this fact to be revealed by life, when 'time' comes.

Language gives shapes to words until they become beliefs or existence. Hinduism exists!. Bullshit exists. We make meaning in duality that just is not the basis of existence in the true sense. Its just there in a scientific sense or objective sense or in a sense of separation of me and an outer world that’s separate from ‘me’.. Meaning making is grasping of an idea or making ideas as a measure of grasping. Its simply a game of conceptualising for registration to memory to form a continuity for ‘future’. However meaning making or understanding is a ‘shock’ whenever it makes and it immediately impacts or imprints to memory. When the final meaning happens that all meanings are mental, including a notion of ‘oneself’ as an entity, the shock is so powerful, that all meanings or hallucinations disappear as factual reality and isolate even the grasp that we could be an entity as a reality.

That is what happens as an end result of seeking or the seeker. The seeking stops and seeker dissolves like a salt module seeking the bottom of a deep ocean. You become the ocean that seems to have no depth. You are That, the infinite potential that has the capacity to ‘know’ all that arises in it.  What makes an 'entity to an apparent body' is the magic of life and will never be known simply because such a knower as a separate entity, is a part of that magical hallucination. Separation is an illusion and no separate entity can ‘see’ through that because such separation is simply a mental effect and there are no separate entities seeing through such separation. If only the separate entity knows that it is inseparable whole, the game of wholeness as separation would be seen as a charming play, enjoyable to its fullest, even in sorrow and death.

Separation does not exist. Paradoxically, we feel separate and really so, which is just an idea. And all seems to exist in separation. That's why, existence in separation does not exist and is the only thing that existence is, to make feel existence 'is' in separation. Purely magical mystery, like a double effect.

Thursday, 24 April 2014

104. Existence ‘in’ reality.

Let us analyse what we mean by something that ‘exists’.
We see objects around us, hear sounds etc and say that they exist. They only point towards our existence more than theirs. So we need to go a little deeper.
When we say all that around us is real and exists,  we are into the game of subject – object.  There is a ‘me’ that is the subject and there is other than me that is the ‘world’ which exists factually, as my object.
What is not ‘me’ is the world and what is not the world is ‘me’. So we demarcate ‘me’ and the world as separate and real. However, without me, there is no experience of the world and so ‘no world’. Similarly, without the world, you can’t experience this ‘me’, that we think we are. This means, there is something that need to be understood here deeply. Experience of the world, includes the ‘me’ness to this body and otherness to other forms which forms the ‘world’. However, an inside me and outside other can't exist independent of each other.
So subject and object is indivisible aspect of each other like a smile and a face and the way we imagine life as we have believed it to be, with such a separation is only an idea or a concept, like the equator.
So what are we and what is the world? This is like asking what is the relation between subject and object? Subjects and objects do not exist in and by themselves, separate from each other. There isn't anything like subject separate form object. That is a myth and also our direct experience.
We only know the objectivity of objects but think they exist as real and separate from 'us'. That which knows these objective reality, as its content, is the subject or ‘me’ or ‘I am’, in the real sense. Now in order to know the subject, such a subject must become the content of knowing, or an object of itself,  which is an impossibility, as this would then need to have a subject to know it. So, since only objects are really existing and since subject cannot be an object, subject cannot exist. If subject does not exist, then subject and object being one unitary phenomenon, objects also cannot exist, in the sense that we always wanted something to be existing. So nothing exists as real existence.
Pure existence is the only thing that really doesn't exist. Other types of sensations arising in consciousness, which seem objective to another objective object, is a magical play in and of creation.
So ‘me’ as an object is not what I am. I as a subject, doesn't have an objective reality. So why worry about what is happening. Happening is happening by itself, as if you and me. Life is living itself as multiplicity of sensations to itself, making believe an objective world to itself, and aslo behaving as an objective subject called ‘me’. So nothing is happening to who or whatever you really are. This is paradoxical, but a fact. All facts objectively exists, which doesn't mean a thing. This fact also is included in it, which also doesn't mean a thing. So all is well, but for no-one.

So all there could only be - is subjectivity or what we could be or what we are, appearing as objectivity or  'all there is' or what is happening.

All so very simple.

Monday, 3 February 2014

103. Knowledge and 'me'.

This is a funny topic. All knowledge is to 'know'. To know is to understand or grasp or measure. So knowledge is a measurement or grasping. All meanings, data, logic etc are mind based and also memory based. Its the mind that has to grasp meanings and store them as knowledge. So grasp of meanings is actually meaning making of forms for conversion to objective reality. In fact objective reality, as separate from ‘me’ is taken as a basis, unquestioned, and mind works on this faith to make meaning of what is sensed, as if a real outside world, which also caters to fabricating a ‘real’ me inside. All this is basically mental though.
We read words and meanings seem to happen to them as if its the word that is fabricating the meaning and then giving it to us. So words 'become' meaningful. Similarly our intelligence is magical in making meanings to forms as if separate from the whole and thus objects start behaving as if they were really what we made out of them. So minds have the Supreme capacity to inject ‘thingness’ to forms. Intelligence can also relate oneself to such objectiveness, so as to complete the mesmerism of subject and object being separate from each other, even though all were just objects in the knowing including what seems to be a 'me' and what appears to be 'other than a me' implied as being the world. This takes shapes to include opinions like good and bad, desirable or undesirable, friends and enemies and such other opposites.
For the first time, as a child, it is difficult for the mind to make meanings as suggested by the mother, as there is no basis of individuality to the body. But repeated patterns of the mothers behaviour as if being separate from the child, help the mind to learn the game of separation as a psychic ability and the game of separation begins. Once the trick is learnt, it gets easier. Thus reality becomes a bundle of knowledge, basis on a real me and a real world of objects with time being real to make events in space also real. Space becomes another reality. So time and space, which are imagined basis, for grasping changing looks of 'now' into events of reality conceived by a 'me' , also gets a stamp of existence. The very tools that created a feel of reality, become independent realities within the conceived reality of imagination. Its a non-failing psychic game. The game is going on from the birth of the human species and will continue, unhindered to eternity. So will suffering as an effect of this cause of imagination, continue feeling real for eternity.
So all objective reality, including me and mine,accumulates as knowledge. All stories of reality or world, gets accumulated as acquired knowledge to memory. We seem to know all about the universe and that caters to hell of lot knowledge. Reasoning is also is a game fed to the mind, to make more knowledge and store as logic. However in the absence of an objective world, separate from us, all this knowledge becomes known as the primary cause of ‘bondage’ mainly due to ignorance. More the knowledge, more is the range of ignorance. So the complete universal play of events in time and space (which is just the changing forms is the frame of now ), seems to be  happening in ignorance, as if real. No body questions  the reality of realness because such a somebody to a body itself is questionable.
Within the hallucination of 'seeing' events in time and space, Knowledge is used as security. When it doesn’t seem to work, more knowledge seems to get churned out as to why it did not work. So even when there is good evidence that reality should be suspected or otherwise, we present the case to this intruder called reasoning or to knowledge and take a call. The bundle of knowledge, then plays havoc with life, as if one is in bondage with this body until death. At one stage when knowledge and reason cannot defend you, free action takes charge, as if without the ‘doer’, something like ‘reflex’ action, or that which is not really ruled by the mind. All types of games are featured in creation to hide the truth of what we are and at the same time it is also continuously pointing out to the hidden truth at the background of the theme, as if an open secret.
Intuition is a mechanism for direct living. It is as if the ‘soul’ takes charge of life and lives ‘you’ and keeps the 'assumed person' free. It plays itself all the time to unfold our next act. Knowledge interferes with intuition to rev up the scene with reasoning, creating a sense of 'me' and world, as if real with joy and suffering to take the play of life to its peak performance. We become a implicated victim, but its a light play as such a 'we' is just notional and not factual. There are no facts. It is a losing game, to come out of the trance of having a ‘me’, because the very effort generates a strength to the ‘me’ sense that wishes to remain forever in the game that life plays out, as separation. In fact knowledge and ‘me’ are connected. We can say, knowledge and so reason, creates ‘me’ and maintains the ‘me’ notionally, as if real to an extent that this knowledge starts ruling the ‘me’ like its ‘boss’. Its an intruder, working for itself that has been created in the form of ‘me’ and keeps messing around without your permission. This ‘me’ deserves nothing less than a complete dissolution, as it is the root of all desires ( followed by sorrows in the absence of meeting the desire). However to come to this situation, wherein ‘me’ should be dissolved, there must be some grace or utter surrender in terms of hopes that has been keeping the suffering of ‘man’ in continuity. The 'man' as a separate sense should end or dissolve or 'die', whatever one may call it. 
Can knowledge about reality lead us to know what we truly are? How can we get there?. This is a funny situation, wherein we want to get there, but such a 'there' is actually ‘here’. So the option left is to trust a Guru, who has been anchored in Truth for a while. These type of advisers ‘happen’ to you like all else happens in this universe and you find yourself trusting in what is being advised. You can then reach a place where in you are willing to dump knowledge on the platform, without having to despise it, as it carries your identity (of me) and go beyond knowledge to intuitive based knowing. This also grasps the absence of ‘me’ which can lead to knowing of 'presence' as 'immutable' sentience that is the essence of ‘all there is’.
So get real by knowing  if thingness to forms can be real or conceptual. This sets in a viral effect in the mind to re- cognise forms as forms with a light feel of no-thingness rather than a heavy conceptualisation of ‘reality’ to forms that ‘words’ depict them to be. Life becomes ‘lighter’ with this perspective and take you ‘Home’ to where you belong at the cost of losing your individuality or 'me-sense' to the body, that never was. Haha. Its a cosmic joke. Enjoy.

Tuesday, 3 December 2013

102. Real and the Imaginary.

Can you imagine what is real and unreal?. If so, the both are just mental constructs or imagination. Both, meaning, the so called 'Real' and the 'Unreal'.
Its difficult to pin the ‘Real’ using normal meanings to words. Words have a tendency to mean whatever the mind is expecting it to be, outside of any factual reasoning. Reasoning is a term for pleasing the mind. When the mind wants to conclude an activity on a subject, it feels that it has reasoned it out. Reasoning is simply a joke. Its meant for mechanical items created out of reasoning and not for natural items that was not your creation. In fact to have separate meanings mechanical and natural, as if they could be understood becomes a complexity.
At times, real means what we all agree to and at times it means- the ‘unchanging’ -and such other different interpretations. In the best effort that we can 'imagine' reality or meaning to 'real', it would still be in the realm of 'imagination'. So reality is just an imagined conclusion or meaning and so are all meanings of all things, words and the rest.
Reality with words makes sense only before one ‘merges’ with the Real, after which words are not required. Until then, the claim of reality is done at the level of mind. But mind itself has no features of reality. The mind is simply a gaming instrument. Mental gaming instrument. The realness of imagined reality is so only until proved false by the same mind that imagined reality to be so. We live on a sphere called earth etc. seems real. Even to say something is unreal, there must be some affirmation of reality to such saying. So unreal-ness also is subject to change sooner or later. So we are left with a feel of reality or unreality of things, only for the moment that it seems so.
Images are objectification or imagined meanings of events of what arises in the knowing, wherein factual meanings are simply not. They are only imagined imprints of contents of knowing, as if knowing could have separate contents. They take up the place of realness to shapes as if they are objects. In fact images of past and future always take up most of the mental 'time' as if past and future can exist as reality, independent of each other.
Mind has a way to take on images as real and express the same feel as reality of objects. It does so by having reality encoded in thought as if real. Thoughts are images or imagined reality. You always find mental communication happening between oneself and others on a non-stop level, in our own mind, until asleep. It keeps the thinking ‘on’ continuously. The ‘you’ that talks to ‘others’ in the mind, are both, mental images. At times we see that a ‘mad’ guy walking and talking aloud. The mental images in his mind of 'himself' and also that of the 'others' that he is talking to, are so real that the guy keeps shouting as if he really dealt with all these guys on the level of reality. We feel uneasy at his ways, because he seems to be flouting the decency of living a ‘human’ life. The difference between him and the rest of us, is that, we intuitively know that all our thoughts are really unreal and there is no need to regard them as real and ‘shout’. We allow the mental play of argument on a transient level, as a play, and forget it after a while. In case these thoughts are capable of generating ‘tension’ and ‘depression’, as if these thoughts could be real people and events, then,  we are no different from the ‘mad’ guy. We are worse, because it requires more effort to hide our state of madness from others, in case we get depressed or tensed. But we sulk, cry, laugh, and even go to the extent of ending one’s life because the thoughts are capable of taking the place of reality, which they are simply ‘not’.
In realising that thoughts are plain mental images, as if of real persons, created on the level of mind, there is a realisation that thoughts cannot harm you as they do not have any reality whatsoever in themselves. The fear that we have is generated at the level of thought itself and this realisation that thoughts are just thoughts, can go a long way to wipe out the root of fear. It is the fear which gives realness to thoughts and thoughts which give realness to fear, as if each is holding hand with the other. Once the mind is put in place, being only mental, fear is simply absent. This is the state of a realised mind, which we all posses but do not accept in our day to day walk of life. In fact life would be laughing at us, like we laugh at mad men, due to our priority given to thoughts.
Extending this logic a little further, Mind makes thoughts as soon as we see, hear, sense etc. The thoughts starts interpreting things after a while. Thoughts become representation of things that we sense. This also means, without thoughts, things would be void of their thingness or meanings, concepts and reality. Its the thought that makes real objectification of forms. We experience the thought about things. So when we deal with ourselves and others and things, we are dealing with our thoughts about ourselves and others and things. Its all a mental exercise devoid of any reality, because thoughts are unreal in the first place. This is our reality. Similarly, thoughts of time other than 'now'makes 'Time' and thoughts of space other than 'here' make up for Space or Universe and Cosmos. Unreal time and space become Real, making meanings to forms and events, simply using thought profiles.It is quite stupid but it seems to be a way of life and it works. Once upon a time, intuition was available to ‘feel’ what realness was and now intelligence seems to be deteriorated by offering such intuition to the level of reason, knowledge, belief, intention, determination etc or simply the capacity of mind to evaluate reality of the world. One day we may go to the 'Guru' and ask him, are we in love?, as if it is beyond our 'feel' to know love on the level of reason. So thoughts seem to manage our life, as if the intruder starts ruling the household after a while.
Forms have no thingness to them, like person to a body, and thingness to shapes. But the mind is a pro at the game of projecting thingness to shapes and persons to bodies, as if reality, and thus lives in deluded ‘world’. As the mind is in no-one's control, this delusion becomes normal at some plane of activity. Further delusion is regarded madness within the madness, like the guy talking to himself.
How do we come out this hypnotic delusion? Is life after coming out of hypnosis better or delusion was the right place for us to stay put? This is a tricky question and mind will always project fear to keep its activity of being in charge active and alive. So it plays games, to think you can awaken, for as long as it can take and maintain the delusion. But in the end, it embraces its own insignificance and makes way for realising the absurdity of thoughts, and pay way for 'direct' living. Thoughts need not be despised. Nevertheless, they should not be given power of manifesting objective reality.
The mind really doesn’t deal at the root of problems. It uses a fantasy as a method of analysing the problem from all directions which can cause fear and allows a method of postpone total eradication, so that its activity is maintained. All our problems are in the thinking of it. If the thought of the problem does not occur, we are free from the problem for that much of a while. So instead of pushing the thinking mechanism to the background, we use it in the foreground, for offering solutions to problems. We have to get rid of the problems and not find solutions which are mostly temporary and generally worsen the problem. For example, we want to be happy. So we buy something that can make us happy for a day or two. We don’t like our boss, we complain, but we don’t change our jobs etc. Problems cannot end, unless the creator of problems is known and put in place. It seems impossible but at some level, we intuitively know that it is possible, though we seek confirmation from mind, and again lose the grip on reality. So we seek, which is another mental game to keep the game going on, as if seeking can end in permanent happiness. It is stopping the mental game than can pull us out of mental activity.
Reasoning is to bring about realness or authenticity to thought with more thought. It works in the plane of building houses and bridges, but fails in human relationships, including finding solutions to one’s own happiness. The very human image as ‘persons’ to bodies is an hallucination or is an imagination and hence doesn’t work well. We explain our failures and success ‘only’ to maintain that feel of being a  ‘person’ to body is ‘real’. But all ‘personalities’ are mental images and our reality cannot be reduced to simple and unreal mental images in mind.
In intuitively realising that all mental structures like thoughts and belief’s are just images about imagined reality, such activity can be ‘killed’ or given no significance. This practice can go a long way to remove self made fear or mind made fear and enable direct living as a way of life, rather than ‘you’ living a life, ruled by mind. In doing so, You will discover the lost Paradise as such direct living, happening moment to moment, without the pressure of thoughts that bring in pain of past and future to mentally spoil the present. Intuitively, mental images must be seen for what they are as images and must be given up instantly. Objectification only increases the spirit of mind game provided we can see the game that is being played by mind. When the game gets real, and affects our life, then we are no less than the mad man on the street, as its time ti kill the mind.

Subjective living is simple, more colorful and full of life, when images of things do not rule in place of things and images of people, do not disturb in place of people. So don’t think real. Be real. Know that mind is like an intruder that has come home and takes over command and even threatens to sleep with your wife, and that too, without your permission. It must be killed before it becomes too dangerous. Deal with reality rather than with concepts of reality. Its 'really' simple. Hahaha.

Sunday, 17 November 2013

101. Mind, Heart, Reasoning and Knowledge.

Life is very funny. It mostly unfolds the next moment as if 'we' are the subject watching the unfolding of life or as a ‘me’ that is negotiating the world of objects, separate from 'me' in the unfolding.
Within the activities of the play of life, our 'personal' life can be played out in two versions. One as if with a 'me' sense to the body and another, as if 'no' me -sense to the body. In version 1, one feels like a 'person' to the body, like all of us generally feel and in version 2,  there is no such a feel of being a person to the body. Nothing can be said about the 'person' that does feels or does not feel in version 2, because such a 'personal' sense itself is not felt and life seems to be just happening there, moment to moment, without a sense of fear, that normally helps in maintaining the status of the person. The action in version 2, is more happening from intuition than from reason or judgement. The action here is not provoked by thoughts as to a ‘person’. Their act is spontaneous and are not backed by a 'why' to such action. Here mind or reasoning did not have a chance to intrude on the action or mind was too late to come into that act. We say the act came out of sheer intuition or from the heart.
So life plays out ‘us’ with reason or with 'mind' i.e, as if a ‘me’ was acting via a choice centre or spontaneously from the heart, as if without a doer or a doing that is impersonal. The play of life intuitively, is usually more successful, not in terms of the feedback from the world, but from the prospect of feeling good about the act or not being guilty about such acts, in all future. Its a peaceful in life to act without doubts or without ‘mind’ or let's say 'from the heart'.
The Mind, when acting 'personal', is very polluted with opinions or judgements or points of view. It behaves like an entity that can handle problems. In fact Mind is the one that makes up these problems and then reasons itself to act on a problem, which has been its own creation.The only basis that a personal mind can act is - of seeking pleasure and avoiding pain.This is its format of functioning in broader terms. Very rarely can one act without judgemental thoughts and that would be only for basic survival. Hence all outcome of actions that are happening associated with a personal sense, would be on the premise that the subject is right and the world is wrong or to move away from pains to the personal self. The judgement based on reason having a premise that there is a solid living separate entity of freewill and choice, creates a mental notional entity as if solid and living. Its a mind game and its 'Life's Leela.
All dualistic knowledge is based on subject -object approach of the mind and every word and action interpreted in subject- object format strengthens the belief of an individual man, separate from the objective world.  There is no knowledge other than in dualistic terms. All knowledge therefore, including nondual knowledge lies in the realm, of dualistic format, simply because language and words are a design of dualistic thinking.
Life plays out the sensory world in a dualistic manner. Its a light play.The Mind picks up this trick of converting one object in perception to be conceived as a subject and rest conceived as 'its' objects.  It is a crazy game and life enjoys its play with all the variety. There is no other than life to deal with life and its crazyness. So all is well.
At times, life plays out human forms as impersonal or direct living. This appears to be more entertaining, natural and satisfying to the soul, as if life is tasting itself in its own play. It just cognises what arises rather than recognise the objective world as separate from itself. Every sound, visual and action  is pleasing to the soul rather than to the mind or reasoning. Its more like the person is functioning from the level of the heart rather than from level of personal thinking, that has selfishness to the core. This games appears selfless. There is no fear of losing, as there is no desire of acquiring. Its a more peaceful way of living a life, until dying the death.
Mind is a conceptual space that deals with reason. Reason or logic is not only in the sphere of knowledge of opposites or cause and effect, but also in the sphere of desire and fear. Mind always functions  in the belief of its own survival and even more, with seeking of more pleasure and avoid pain.  To conclude through mind, is to conclude with a desire for less pain. It is a programmed conclusion rather than a logical conclusion. In fact logic is based on such desire to seek pleasure and avoid pain. So all logic is biased logic, as far as functioning of a mind is concerned through reason. Reason can only support mechanical structures and falls down under its own weight when dealing with mental structures. Knowledge of gravity, loading, strengths etc, could be the basis when applied to build a stronger house that could last for a while. Adding more reason of earthquake, fire and tsunami hazards, can make the house stronger and better to cater to eventuality. It seems to work. However when dealing with 'people' or oneself on a mental level, knowledge has a high rate of failure. One cant have knowledge of mind. Mind is the source of all knowledge other than of itself. One cannot treat a mind because there are no mind. Its just life playing itself out as 'split minds'. It is like treating oneself to be happy. It is bound to fail. Either you are happy and or unhappy and just cant find what it is that makes one so. 
Reasoning works well on the level of objects.  Mind, that has a personal interest,  is not a pure reasoning tool. In fact all reason, when applied to 'people' is based on 'personal' interest. On the other hand, there is no other reasoning tool other than personal mind. There is nothing like a pure mind or an impersonal mind unless you become a ‘sage’, where in the mind sees all as one source and not separate form one another. Applying ‘personal’ mind or reasoning to subject or ‘life itself’ is not a good idea. One mind reasoning the reasoning of another mind, is quite complex. Mind reasoning the actions of one’s own mind is also bound to fail. The biased tool that is used to analyse objects cannot be used to analyse the analyser. The analyser is the mind. The mind cannot be used to know the mind, because it cant find such a mind that can be made into its own object for self study. There is no mind per say. This becomes worst.  We are still attempting to use it here, but just to show the paradox or failure rate in using the wrong tool for this operation. Analysing the mind to show that its a reasoning tool, meant to succeed only for mindless objects is a good result of such analysis. However its wise to know that one has to go beyond the mind to deal with the mind. Going beyond the mind means to simply discarding this tool to ‘know’ or even more, to act. You cant think of a better tool, because it is still in the level of the mind. You cant use thoughts to know the thinker. You can get to a point that a thinker of thoughts is a myth and leave it at that. So the burden of a thinker, dealing with life situations becomes a myth. Once the habit falls away, its like keeping the luggage on the floor rather than on the head, when not moving. While moving, better to still find a floor that moves with you, like a train or any other vehicle. When burdened, use a vehicle, it will carry your luggage and you also.
How does one go beyond the mind? Simply by discarding the notion of a 'me' to be real. This allows for direct action, without interpretation of logic. Its like applying brakes, when there is danger in front of you, or killing a spider that wants to hurt you. Its done without any thinking or 'doer'. Its natural.
Life is a magical vehicle. When you give up your ideas of mental burden, trying to sort your problems using personal mind or reasoning, life will absorb you and your mind, to make the rest of the journey, light and unmindful of all the beliefs that went into making one’s knowledge. It is then seen how beliefs resting with gain and fear, were the structure, that held down the weight of knowledge, forming the basis of reasoning. It had the power to create a real world with you as a subject, that was negotiating a real objective world out there. There pressures of life were just for the pleasures of life and gave endless challenges to be overcome. You even seemed to manage all challenges the last minute, by tolerating or overcoming  these hurdles of life to make your ‘personal’ life seem successful.
In the absence of belief systems, the ‘you’ that seemed so real and was only the biased mind, becoming your ‘Boss’ or decision maker, even without your permission, goes out of window -as a another belief also. The ‘you’ is then seen as a ‘mental object’ being burdened by its own mental beliefs of reality, suffocating life to seek pleasure and avoid pain. Life then on becomes more and more subjective, with the world like a dream that can’t be touched. This extensive intelligence called life or consciousness is capable of being alive, living itself, as this apparent world, unfolding each moment as if new, young and fresh. It seems to ‘live you’ without a you or without a ‘me-sense’ or without a doer-ship. Life then becomes infinitely valuable rather than a infinite burden, that was being made to feel ‘real’ with use of logic.
Intuition is day to day living from the ‘heart’ or from the origin of Love. It’s happening all the time, presently too, being camouflaged or filtered into ‘actions’ provoked by a personalised mind or by an illusory independent ‘me-sense’. End of the using such personalised logic, presents pure thoughts or intuitive knowing to take over one’s life, making a living, uncovering the paradise that ‘life’ is, as was always, but was ignorantly blurred with reason to make believe a lot of belief’s, including the belief that a ‘me’ and ‘other’ had objective reality.
So abide in the heart of intuitive knowing rather than the reasoning intellectual mind that can cause the paradise to slip away into this horror waking state, which we think as a real world, weighing us down heavily through mind. The only way to abide in the heart, is to realise that 'our images' of forms are unreal and all reality is 'life' pretending to be multiplicity. So life appears as a beggar and you give him something to survive without thinking too much or sharing what you have. When you have nothing to give, give him a Hugh at least. You know, its is also you, 'pretending' to be the other. Lol.

Wednesday, 30 October 2013

100. Word is the Thing.

Evolution of our conceptual universe is all about the dynamics of psychic activity. Psyche or the source of thought, is life’s power of realising sensational appearance as reality.  
To the ear, word is but a sound. To the psyche or ‘soul’, word is an objective experience. To life, word is 'itself' being the power that is able to create a subject-object world. So the world of objects originates in conceptualisation based on knowledge, which have their roots in sound or language. How is this possible? That’s what life is all about.
You know about Samsara or this objective world, feeling exclusively real, only as long as life makes a 'feel' of an objective mental entity, as a centre, from which we operate. In Nirvana, such a make feel entity is thrown out of this psychic conceptual activity, maintaining no centre at all for such a 'me-sense' to occur. The absence of 'me-sense' culminates in absence of all objective sense of this subjective appearance and there is no objective concern of the world at all to any objective 'me' that is now 'not'.
A simple case, is to take a J.K.Rowling’s Harry Potter work. There is a Harry Potter world that is imagined, this is converted to text or word file in 4 to 5 volumes. The film ‘Harry Potter’ is carved out of the words from these books, to remake the experience that J.K.Rowling has, as originally mentally imagined. So the entire text of only words or sounds, is made into a possibility to an entire experience of Harry Potter, by the filming unit. Its not only the visual, but the audio that makes it a powerful experience. You become the movie itself for a while, until you leave the theatre. The words in the book can also have the power of a virtual experience.
A new born child is an example of pure potential of life. Life as a child is made to experience sounds, to seem as objectified experiences. Repeated attempts my its mother creates the practice to form 'meanings' or concepts or objectivity, to sounds that are uttered.  It is fondled for a while and given the experience of a Mother to a Child. Then it is bombarded with sound to mean ‘Mom’ as that experience. So it learns to accept the sound ‘Mom’ for all the meaning made out to be that of ‘mother’as an experience. As the child gathers more meanings and experiences to the word ‘mother’, the new meanings as recorded as memories of new experiences or modifications to the word 'mother' and stored. The power of the word ‘Mom’ gets greater day by day. It grows like a child to an adult. It becomes synonymous with Mother India, Goddess, and what not. So power gets injected as its meanings, into that single word and becomes a motherful experience day by day, to denote whatever life wants, in unfolding of any event from time to time. It also grows to the extent that when used out of context or in a wrong context, it has the power to destroy such a ‘mis-user’ of that word and may lead to fights between two people, two sections of people or even two nations, when the word 'mother' is apparently abused.
Making meaning to a word or its sound, is to add its experiencing capacity. This is called conceptualisation. Its free floating after a while, when the word becomes its concept or meaning or experience. The word becomes the thing and the thing becomes the experiencing of it. This becomes useful in communicating your experience of the world or part there of, to make it the ‘others’ experience, so that, the understanding of the experience as maintained on the level of the communicator. At times, communication in words, tends to distort the original experience depending on the urge of the communicator to distort the experience or even on the part of the listener to absorb the communication is a distorted version. How all this has to unfold is decided by Life that operates itself as 'people'.
The mind, which plays the game of creating words out of experiences and re-creating experiences out of words keeps the two, floating at level with each other, to create this universe full of objective experiences.
In the absence of one communication to another, thoughts fills up time, communicating with oneself, as if 'people' even while being alone, doing nothing. So life is filled with experiences. It makes meanings out of all sensations that are visual, audible etc etc, finds individual meanings to parts there off and makes an experiences out of these ‘objects’ wound in ‘words’ around a pseudo ‘me’ which is an assumed experience-er that there should be, to whom such experiences are applicable, as if the subject experience-er experiences an objective world.
Memory plays a big part in storing all experiences as ‘meaningful’ events in time and space, adding past and future as if ‘time’, and here and there as if ‘space’ and this and that as if ‘objects’, have validity of their own, in creating experiences as if independent realities that makes up a real objective world.
So sounds, became words, powered to mean objective realities, including the word  ‘me’ as if a real entity, existing in a real ‘world’ full of objects, living a life and dying a death. It helps create stories about such experiences to be taken as realities and re-lived as memories, from time to time. Meanings or concepts to words even include emotions and sentiments that happen around them, that it can create such huge psychic powers, that when used to defend or attack in religious ways, can use human species to blow up the human species itself to a large extent.The whole universe then becomes a huge reality in space and time.  
In absence of this psychic mechanism called mind, keeping itself busy, working to make a world of reality out of perceived sensations, the valid reality of all objectivity, which is just conceptualisation that was happening, is laid thread bare its original appearance as just an appearing world of forms, whirling in its fullest beauty, creating and recreating itself, as if time and events, only for the purpose of enjoying its own game. A sense of ‘me’ within such formation of wholeness is lost to the background. The ‘you’ that  seemed to be there, all this while, is just lost to this new format of not having to need this ‘me-sense’. Everything seems full and perfectly in place, as now a sense of me and other has lost its relevance and life is just seen in its naked aliveness, in its fullest beautiful form, like a naked dance of life living itself fully. The feeling of an objective ‘me’ that is negotiating a ‘objective’ world simply goes missing from then on. This is a shift in perception that happens, fortunately or unfortunately not relating back to any ‘me’ that can feel this for ‘oneself’ as the ‘oneself’ of new experience, is lost for ever. Coming out of time has merged you into ‘life’ that was the only thing that always was.

Friday, 23 August 2013

99. Truth.

What is meant by Truth.  It’s just to know the truth of what you really are and a 'me' cannot know what 'I' am simply because this 'I' business is playing out the 'me' and also the 'world' as content of knowing with a 'me' feeling as if a subject to the rest of me, to be felt by the me, as if its object. But such division is just a feel being played by life with itself.  
Upto now, we think we are this body mind. We can never think of anything else that we can be, other than this body mind.For a moment, we take away the aspect that we could be this body mind. Now what is left?. Since we can never think of any think else that we could be, other than this body mind entity, then, we cant be anything at all. Thats what Neti Neti is. You are not anything at all ( objectively).
Experientially, we know that we are. This cannot be negated. We exist. So if not the body mind, how else could be our existence taking place?  What else could we be ?.
Intellectually, we know that under any circumstance, there is awareness of contents of creation. Perceptions are automatically happening and effortlessly too. There is 100 % knowing, of what is known. If you cant read without spectacles, then that knowing is 100% that seeing is blurred. A blurred knowing cannot know the blurr seeing.If we are drunk, there is 100% knowing. A drunk knowing cannot know a drunk feeling, This means knowing is 100% clarity of degenerated contents in the knowing from 100% to zero. Even when blind, the knowing, that contents in the seeing are devoid of seeing, is happening with 100% clarity. The knowing is always at 100% clarity, as to whatever is perceived. May be contents seem unclear, but even this sense about deformed contents are very clear.
So we can say, intellectually that ‘knowing faculty’ is what we can be, that has body and mind, as its content. So this perceiving faculty is what we are. That is the TRUTH of what we really are.
However, knowing of pain is pain. So since knowing is what we are, which is also pain, then the isness of pain is what we are. So all knowing again is all creation, like pain, and that is what we are, the isness of content of creation. So we are nothing objectively and  isness of everything objectively,
So we are both knowing and isness of content of creation simultaneously. The only way it can happen is only and only if knowing is all there is, knowing of content is the content, making feel that there are contents to knowing, as if to a knower as known items, outside of such knowing. THAT is the TRUTH.


Whichever way you analyse it, we can get to the bottom of what TRUTH is, experientially for oneself.. Now comes the question of 'being' the truth, rather than an intellectual knowledge of the truth. When the notion of 'me-sense' to the body drops, Being is all there is. Knowing is the being of it and being is the knowing of it.