31. Creation – An expression of the Life that is Unknowable

Energy has two properties. Static as a potential of 'Knowing' and Dynamic as the 'knowing' of 'forms' or Creation. The knowing of forms takes on a lively format when part of the form feels separate and feels as the knower of the rest of the forms, taking them to be imagined objects in reality. So a part of the content of knowing feels subjective and the rest of the part of 'content of knowing' feels objective to the earlier object that felt subjective. That is the play of life. Very light and very ordinary.

All is just a happening to no-one but feeling like a world happening to a 'me'. Its magical and mystical in a way and all of human race, feel that subject object is the format that creation seems to have created itself into this apparent real world.

There is no use understanding this unless the understanding permeates to a level of not taking credit for all doing and neither blame, as the doer of the doing is just a notion in thought. Aliveness being all there is - is playing out this creation as it is felt to be, with no harm to anyone, other than in a notional way. So its interesting to let go the burden of being the doer and just watch the doing as being done by Life that simply Is. 

Life exhibits itself as an expression of energy that shows up in consciousness as forms that are perceivable in the knowing of it and though these forms just arise out of knowingness or aliveness or no-thingness, it still feels individual, separate and negotiating a survival in the world of objects that are solid matter, apart from the mental knowing of them. Very tricky and very unique phenomenon.
It is life that sees, hears, feels  etc etc.  It is life also that which animates bodies by being bodies that are apparently alive or dead, and also by being all of creation as living, non living and the space that engulfs them. Being is knowing and knowing is being, one as if many. The appearance of thoughts as mental meanings to forms as if real and separate is more magical and slowly sets in a condition of living from the point of individual entities. However there are glimpses that can make feel the illusiveness of reality, in every ordinary movement, or in time or unto death.However Life is a-casual, alive being itself, play out this crazy game of separation in parts, enjoying itself the expression so formed as if separate from itself to be known.Lonely in its static mode, it enjoys all that there is as creation, in its dynamic mode, full of change, colour and life, that captures the mind to be fully involved in separation. 
So the body, mind and thoughts are all 'life' expressing itself as all there is, including separation and suffering or dissolving of separation and wholeness.

30. Donkey and me :.

Imagine some brown chewing gum was accidentally stuck to a donkey’s forehead like an Indian ladies ‘tilak’. The gum being brown in colour, didn’t know, where it ended and where the donkey began. It went everywhere the donkey went, but was aware that the donkey was going where that the gum itself was going. After 6 months, when everybody started addressing the donkey as such, the gum thought everybody was addressing itself. Now the gum identified itself with the donkey as if it owned the donkey. When the donkey’s foot was hurt, the gum said, it –itself- was hurt at that point and so on. One day, the gum got dislodged and fell down. The donkey went about its daily life and the pain now never belonged to the chewing gum. The gum was ‘enlightened’. The donkey never knew it had or had to have -a owner and the chewing gum would be the least of any such imaginary owners. Similar is our ‘me’ sense. The I is ok. The ‘me’ and ‘mine’ are dangerous one’s.

That’s why they say, nobody gets enlightened. The gum is a 'I-thought' that sticks and drops off. So body feels light of thought process. There is not going to be a 'enlightened donkey'. Donkey will remain donkey. Sense of any owner of any body will not be perceived that way from then on.

29. ‘Knowing’ as life and a ‘me’.

Imagine that your toe is paining. Now when a toe pains, it is only the toe that knows the pain, In fact -it is life 'at' the toe that knows the pain, not the leg, not chest, not the head, not the body and not the ‘me’ or an ‘I”. There is no owner to the pain, other than a simple knowing called life that is available at the toe. The pain is felt by life. It is not felt by ‘toe’ or any other part of the body. We use words, like , I feel the pain. These are just words. At max. the toe feels the pain. Whose toe?, body’s toe -says a thought, whose body- Mine- says the thought. These are just thoughts. That doesn’t shift the pain from the toe- to the body- and to the ‘I’. It seems here that ‘I’ wants to own a body, and body wants town a toe. There isn’t a need to own. You cant go on owning whatever is seen. You can’t own the Sun, Moon and bodies. Not even one body.

There is just life and body here. There is a knowing. A knowing of pain -at the point of pain, knowing of an object -at the point of an object and knowing of a sound -at the source of sound. All knowing at its source. That’s all there is. All there is –is knowing. All there is –is life. Playing bodies, knowing sounds etc.etc. There is no owner to life. There is no owner to knowing other than knowing itself. Life is the ‘knowing’. It is not your knowing. It is just ‘knowing’.

The knowing of pain is just a simple knowing. I and you are just words for communication. Simple words to avoid confusion. But these words are themselves the cause of confusion when the speaker believes them to be true. Then arise an owner for the pain. Therefore, It is not a toe that is paining, but an ‘I’ that has started to ‘suffer’. There is no suffering other than the pain in the toe. But this is made to seem that. The pain in the toe is causing a ‘me’ to suffer. ‘Me’ and ‘suffer’ are thus words without actual and factual meaning. But they are given pseudo meanings. Then these meaning are taken to be real and felt real – All as a play by life in life. Ignorantly.

There isn’t a owner to life. No body can know how this word ‘me’ has taken up such massive meaning as to own life within the body. There is just life. Appearing as bodies and object and life source or life energy moving them. It doesn’t require an owner. It works well even without a ‘sense ‘of individual ownership. If all parts of life, become independent owners, then petals will own petals and flower will own flower and toe will own toe. Up to this. It seems ok. But flower owning a petal and a body owning a toe still can make some sense. Wholeness or life can own bodies. ‘I’ cannot. Therefore there isn’t any thing called an ‘I’. The ‘I’ is only a personal sense of ownership. There is nothing new to be owned at the level of the body and life. In any case, a limited ‘I’ cannot own it. It is just a word floating around, and taking ownership of whatever it latches on to. It is like a tenant owning the house.

The I -is a word just used for communication between two human looking bodies. That communication is done by life and is known in life. However, there is a limited feeling with the uses of this word. It is as if this word has become alive somehow and taken procession or ownership of life within the body. It is life that gave birth to the word ‘I’ and the meaning there seems have given birth to life itself and limited it the life inside 'a' body. Now life gets captured by its own creation of the word 'I' that was meant for simple communication.

So the word ‘I’ has no standing as an owner. It doesn’t mean anything. ‘I’ cannot have pain in the toe. There is only – pain in this toe. So ‘I’ was never meaning something so big as we imagine. I was never there as a real ‘I’. In fact I is never there. That is why you are free. I is nothing. Could not have been born and can never die.

There is only life and body. Not my life and body. We are not souls, we are not anything. That is why we are free, because we are never to be found as anything anywhere. That we and me are just words for pointing out a body. There is body, that is in pain, and all problems. All this belong to life. Nowhere is a 'me'. The me was never ever there. It can't die, because it was never ever there. Not even as an illusion. That is the illusion. So simple. It is like putting a yellow tag on red and telling the red that you are yellow. Like telling the tiger- you are a sheep. Never ever was. Adam and eve were Adam and eve. Not a ‘me’ and a ‘you’.

I and you are just illusory words.  They are just not even a word. It is a catalyst. The most deadly of the catalyst. It doesn’t get affected on its own, but has the ability to effect life itself - as if - to behave as a separate 'person'. In fact, life should have been getting rid of this word once for all, if it didn’t want to suffer. But that would end the dream that life is dreaming because it would now become like a single colour painting. Like a green background only, searching for a photograph. Not even a shade would be found to make a mark of a portrait.

So there  isn’t an 'I'. There is only life and body parts there. Life doesn’t need an owner. It itself is the creator of pain and feeler of pain. So 'I' is free, because it never was. Funny isn’t it?. How that sense came into being is the question that doesn’t have an answer and that doesn’t need an answer as there is no-one other than life. But that’s the way life sees itself. Have good laugh ( and that will also be life laughing using that body ).

When there is an understanding  that this ’I’ has no actual significance for oneself, it will dissolve like salt toy  in the ocean of life .The whole ‘me- sense’ that was feeling energetic due to mistaken ownership for life itself, will seem like an arrogance and it will be seen clearly that life was all that there was. Life was seeing, hearing etc etc and walking and talking all bodies and the body that was considered mine. There was no-sense in considering life belonged to a ‘me’. It was a wrong usage of the term that had picked up a new meaning which was actually and arrogantly meaningless. There was no owner to life as an individual. There was no ‘I’. There was no you and the tree and the buffalo. These were just identity tags for life to communicate in life. There wasn’t any person within or outside of life. Life behaved as an individual and there was a sense of ownership. It was as if life was kidnapped and renamed as ‘me’. That was ignorance and arrogance.

All there is –is life. There wasn’t a me. So the me was never existing and was never in bondage because it never ever existed to begin with. It was never born. There was a need to attach it any meaning which now has to be removed. Life is void. It is like the vastness of darkness. You cant find it with a light called ‘me’. You will see only the light. You cant see life.

So there is nothing to do. Just to realise that, ‘I’ never was and never will be. All there is –is life.

28. Enlightenment - Experience and Non-Experience.

It is worth normally to discuss enlightenment to the waking state only to understand what happens there or how we function within it.

We can say that - it is life - that is seeing and hearing outside the framework of the body, It is life -that is feeling the touch and taste on the frame work of the body and some emotions and sensations inside the framework of the body. So the body is just a visual illusion to earmark where you start or end. But the real you ‘who’  is the perceiver of objects - is life itself, doing certain aspects of perceiving outside and certain aspects inside the borderline of so-called body. So as a perceiver, we have no inside and outside.

Now there is a world out there ( seen by life) and an experiencing here in the body, of the world out there,  in synchronism with the outside world.

For example, If you see a snake, immediately, there is a fear experience in the body. In other words, two actions are happening simultaneously, One is the seeing of a snake, not by a body, but by ‘life’ itself (which seems to have ‘space’ as its body), and an experience of fear, experienced by ‘life’ ( which think is experienced by the limited body. This combination confirms to a belief that the body is doing the seeing and also the experiencing as if,  there was a person in there, who had a capacity to see outside and feel inside.

This synchronising effect, together with the belief of a person residing inside the body, keeps the story of the person living in ‘time’. The story is further strengthened by thoughts confirming, as to what  was seen and how dangerous it was etc, as if the thoughts were initiated inside the body, by that person. A little sprinkling of earlier memories, when such a scene was experienced, is then added and all this seemingly enacts the reality in space and time of a continued story. These thoughts are very much necessary to infuse feelings and emotions of their own, without the visual snake being there.

In enlightenment, what is clear is that, all activities belong to life and the body is just an illusion which had no role other than make a boundary-line for seemingly inside feelings and outside seeing. It is also seem that the visual outside is without any person attached to a body or a  thingness attached to objects. It is also linked to no separate experiencer to experiences and all experiences are seemlessly happening in the knowing. So there is confirmation of meaninglessness to a sense of a separate  ‘I’ or You or Things or places as here and there etc., whatever language uses to make a feel of objectivity to this audio visual world as an appearance. 
There are just forms changing in its format and without a core. For example -like clouds, changing shapes. When all objects are thus seen without a core – so as to say, and the core in the self body is also not felt, there is perfect non-experience to events that are happening as if to a person. It is like, as if meaning cant be made to what is visualised in a subject object format. This takes away the element of time being a reality to the visual, and life seems to be doing the seeing, without a ‘me’ with no sense of time. The inexperience of time, cannot make a story or a sequence of what is seen. What is experienced therefore is a timeless experience. It would be like a dream, that had no sequence to events and in which the central dream character that ‘you’ are - were missing. The whole dream then is timeless and inconsequential.

So it could be related to as if being awake to our dream state with our eyes open. No person, no time and no attachments and so no story.

The waking state, in normal sense is thus, a story of ‘me’ personalising  all experiences. In the realisation of the real nature of creation, there is an end to  the ‘me’ story and all its sub stories of others and memory is allowed to be used only to live peacefully with others, so that you may not be sent to a mental asylum. 

Then the story plays on, but now, it has been seen trough that ‘life’ is all there is – stripping out all the illusions and also the experiences of fear and anxiety as mere thought forms that have no basis in reality.  The body is then clearly seen as an instrument of expression to life like an ‘amplifier’ expressing the inaudible to the crowd.

It is also seen, that life was always so, and it took just one ‘ Lucid Non experiencing’ experience to blow the cover of the  ‘belief,  that there could be a person inside any- body.

27. How Human-Being works.

We are made of three parts. One is the body, operated muscularly, second is a prompting mechanism or mental thoughts, and something hidden that seems to know whatever is happening as a knowing capacity.

Now suppose the example is seeing the view in front of us, the whole creation is what appears like a single painting in space and is seen by a ghost called visual knowing, then there is a mental meaning making to patterns that is perceived as if to one part of the perception called 'me' and separated from the totality of perception and 'made' to feel like the other and somehow there is knowing of the subjective me and objective world, God knows to who.

All this three happenings are superimposed on each other as if to seem like an entity is reading and understanding. There is no seeing from here at all, in place, there is simply a ‘cognising’ or knowing of print. There is no understanding by an individual at all, but only prompt or thoughts which have in-built understanding. The thought encompasses meaning within itself. If thoughts don’t prompt, your head could stare at this screen for ever and no 'seeming' reading would happen, like if the print is Chinese or Kannada. And if the thought prompted that you read something, that was not there, then you actually felt that you read something and it actually was not there. This normally happens for skipping lines when reading. Therefore, it is quite likely that you missed reading many paragraphs or read something which was never there. For example there is a perception of a body and 'your' thought prompts you that he is someone you know and talking will happen until the ignorance is expelled. So you cannot know until thoughts makes you the knower, to what it feels it knows. 

The knowing of all content, is a ghostly factor that is not there -as ‘something’ or ‘not something’. It is not- something- that is present, but, something which makes the presence of a thing felt. It is called life. Life is not something. Life is what gives us a feel or brings about presence of colours, feelings sounds etc. All those that are present, like colours etc. And may be called objects, are felt present, only, due to ‘life’ being present, prior to, something that can be objectively present.

This is our unborn quality. Life is what we are as ‘I’ ‘you’ it etc. The ‘I’of all is the same ‘I’. The knowing of being present. Moreover, all things are just appearances, in life, made of  ‘life’ as if -to say- that, it is life itself which ‘appears’ as colours, shapes, sounds etc or life expresses itself as objects. The objectivity of an object or the thingness of a thing is an expression of life. Colours seem lively, people and animals and birds and sunset and stone and rivers all – seems so lively, because they express life itself. So the source of all objectivity is life, which, is just appearances in life, appearing real to the life that you are.

All there is – is life. All objects are pointing to existence of life and not so much to existence of the objects. For example, if you see a pen, ‘you’ are alive. “You’ are alive ‘to’ the pen ‘at’ the pen. The ‘knowing’ regarding the pen is happening at the pen. That is where knowing or ‘you’ or ‘life’ is simply available. It is ‘life’ that knows, ‘life’ that sees all at the source of the so called objects. It’s ‘Life’ that is alive to itself. Aliveness is life. Life is not the opposite of death. Death is the opposite of Birth. Life a just a capacity to see or feel all births and deaths etc., including what we call ‘our’ body. Life has no ‘our’ ‘your’ etc. There are only bodies. Life animated bodies.  It is life that appears to animate a body as a live body, a blind body, a dead body. And ‘You’ are that ‘Life’ or knowing as “nothing’ and always before any births and deaths. Time and space are not available to our senses. They are just words attached to thoughts, to stretch presence of objects longer using techniques of the mind. Time and space are mind games – which is also a quality, life puts in, to make its play seem ‘spicy’.

It is only bodies, objects and thoughts - that appear to be born or come into existence and remain for duration in time and space and disappear or die to its assumed shape or form.

The knowing of these activities is a knowing to / of   life - that ‘you’ are. This life is not limited to a body. Not trapped inside. There must be ‘ life’ to be around the tree to bring about its ‘seeing’ as an object, there must be life inside the tree to give it appearance of being alive, etc. However all of this comes about as a ‘knowing’ to the life that you are. Knowing is life. It is all pervading. Where ever to put the focus, there is a knowing of something present or absent. That all pervading life is what is all that is there.

If one wants to hold on to a personal self, he can do so– but to a impersonal ‘life’. Or else it ‘seems’ an imagined bondage that we try to get liberated from.

Happy ‘beingness’.