The effect of thought is different from thought itself, as if, a thought pops up from somewhere and an effect from somewhere else creeps in and jointly create the so called thought effect. Thought by itself, cannot understand a thought. Neither can it understand the thought that is happening nor the next thought nor the previous thought. There are just words, or images, that cannot understand itself nor the previous nor the next. However, magically, meanings and expressions seem get attached to perception and through such thoughts, as if thoughts are interpreting our purpose in life and playing out the 'me' to negotiate the 'outer world of objects" .
Thought is an intuitive knowing and it suddenly adds learnt meanings so that the final understanding is veiled to feel a real me separate from the real world out there. Its very magical. It is difficult to actually find out the exact process how this happens as, it would be impossible for us to separate ourselves from thoughts and know what is happening. All of the knowing and experiencing is just an arising in aliveness and animating this body as if a separate 'person'.
Let us take an example. Say you are standing on a high bridge over a river. You tied some rubber cord to your legs, like in a bungee jump. Now you jump into the river. The feel of the jump is actually heart sinking as in the case of great fear or jumping without the tying of the legs, but the thought of being 'safe' with the rubber cord, comes in as if this was lovely feeling and assumes a ‘nature’ of thrill, as if different from fear. Then you go around telling that bungee jumping is thrilling.
This is actually how our system works. Whether you see a lovely sunset or a bad road accident, your heart skips a beat or sinks, become breath taking and that feel is decoded as a thrilling event or a frightful event as the case may be, to link the story of ‘seeing’. In all cases, it is breath taking, racing of the heart beat etc. The thrill or the fear of seeing a snake within your reach, has the same special effect ( or emotional effect). Meaning to say, the simulation in the body, for most of the ‘seeing’ is almost the same. Its like simulation of the bike, in a gaming session of kids. According to the movement of the bike in the video, the physical bike on which the child sits, ‘vibrates’ a little. No matter, what the bike in the video does, jumping a bump, or crashing the divider, or head on collision, the simulation in the physical bike is the same. The child still feels the real thrill of crash or jump.
In case, due to some reason, there is not a synchronising of the ‘seeing’, with thought and ‘feelings’, events will continue to happen, as if without meanings or attachments. Like in a dream. Thoughts are mostly worded descriptions, as if, the ‘seeing’ was an event that was effecting an entity within the body. So arising of a thought, is necessarily describing the event with a judgement of good or bad or ugly or dangerous, seemingly to an entity, thereby ‘keeping’ a fictional entity bound to a body. Parallelly, the ‘feel of fear or thrill’ will rhyme with the ‘seeing’ to feel as if, it is a ‘part and parcel’ of the ‘seeing’ and thinking .
Thoughts narrate a story to match the ‘seeing’ as if an event, happening to an individual. The simulation of the ‘feel’ of fear or thrill makes the entire package of ‘seeing’ as if a real event to a ‘me’. Over a period of conditioning, the feel of fear or emotion automatically gets associated with thoughts also. A small child may allow a snake to pass on its body, feeling may happen, break taking may happen, but, since the child had no story of itself or of that of a snake, the event could not be meaningful. In such a case, the event doesn’t seem to happen at all. Without thought, there is no story and also no event. Even if there was an event, without the story, it is regarded as a un-noticed event. So ‘noticing’ has to happen along with story making and conversely, story making is noticing. If you seem to ‘notice’ an enemy in the other person, you can be sure, you are having a story that happened already.
Thoughts are packets of stories. And stories are nothing but meaning making of the ‘seeing’. Over a period of time, it is ‘assumed’ that all ‘seeing’ are meaningful or events or stories and so, all ‘seeing’ are converted to stories. So every seeing starts to attach a meaning, reason, cause, effect etc, in short called ‘a story’ to the seeing. This happens until it reaches a stage that, ‘seeing without their stories’, becomes no seeing at all, as if gone un-noticed. The meaning making or thought happening around the seeing and effect happening at the body, seems to be converting the whole seeing into an meaningful experience. So the experience includes the ‘seeing’ of it, the story or thought of it and the effect or fear or emotion of it. After a while, thoughts themselves start producing inter –related stories, connecting one event or experience to another and these more stories, seems to generate their worth of feeling of fear and emotions. So the feel, that was previously seeming to happen only with ‘seeing’, now starts happening with seeing of thoughts alone, as if, such event was happening in reality, along with its pound of fleshy ‘feelings’. So the ‘thought’ or a money lender, coming home for his money becomes as power packed, as if, the money lender came in ‘person’.
If we are able to see the subtleness of thoughts and feelings and how they have their effect, we are able to put a wedge and isolate thought and its effect or the feel of emotions that seem to be generated in the body. Once this wedge is in place, the system that automatically generates feelings to thoughts or vice versa (generates thoughts to feeling), gets known to be a very artificial simulator. To a large extent, this can help in receding thoughts to the background for a seeing and also recede feeling to the background for a given thought, seen ‘as thought’. So it is possible, to have pure seeing ( or may be not), with some understanding of how the body and thoughts are involved in the ‘seeing’, thereby automatically creating a time gap for associated emotions, thoughts, memory, etc, to synchronise with the ‘seeing’, thereby reducing its punch. Then the mind is said to be ineffective in story making.
Without stories and the special effects of bodily feelings, Existence takes a new format. This format is more interesting than the mind offered story of Existence. The worst part of the story, that there is a ‘me’ to which the story is woven around, also falls away and this has the power to drop the illusory separation, of forms and also ‘me’ and the ‘other,’ because ‘separation’ is the fabric of storytelling. Life without stories or concept is seen as a non volition happening of events or as ‘pure seeing’ without concepts and separation, which is Existence itself or ‘all that is happening here and now’. This has a feel of an illusion to what is happening, and the reality of it was just in the story telling of the illusion or just ‘mental.
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