111. Knowing the reality of who we are.

Is there one?.

The Masters say that the reality of what we are, is not 'who we think we are', or who we are is not who we are. This is a very big statement and leaves no clue to think, who we can be or what we can be.  We 'are' for sure and cannot be denied. Or else we would not be, and that is something unthinkable. This puzzle can never be solved directly. Indirectly, you can sit with this statement and ponder all logical and illogical ideas of what we are, until the dawn breaks.

Knowing the reality of who we are, is thus very confusing on an existential level or on the level of making a proof. If we can prove who we are is not who we are, then we can prove all else, as not, what all else is and this will take away all that we know to be 'real'.  It gives a hint that all reality is unreal until proven real, or real until proven unreal and there is a way to know the reality beyond what we know as real as on date.

Assuming we are simply ‘not’, then the sentence gets modified to ‘knowing who we are not’. The Masters  are happy to prove that we never could be anything under the Sun. But that makes the student  frustrated. And Masters love frustration, as if this could cause basis of clarity when the frustration reaches its peak and the mind blows away. So the student keeps trying to blow his head away.

Where could there be an end to all this?. We can say, teacher is not teacher, student is not student, All just is, and what is happening, but nothing is happening anyway. So more news for frustration. Frustrated, one must be. The basis of the whole damn learning is at stake. So unlearning is taught to be the new mantra that must be learnt. Its a cats game to get its tail.

So we analyse the shortcomings. Language is learnt on the basis of duality and the mind gets conditioned to duality becoming the basis in creation of understanding the creation. Subject-Object becomes a reality because of its experience to one, that way. The whole humanity is insane ( but called sane) to learn and experience duality, and this play of life, causes dual hallucination as ‘normal’ to be experienced. So no way out. Out we must go, because, logic doesn’t seem to end frustrations and suffering and we are sure, that solution to this mental block has to exist. So ones tries to be ‘mindful’ to get the mind 'out of the way', as if the mind is the only stumbling block. The game gets better.

To cut the story short, Who we are is a wrong question. What we are is even more wrong. So the premise is in itself wrong. All there is –is ‘Knowing’. What we are is this ‘knowing’. Since so much is known in terms of shapes, sounds and sensations, there exists a ‘knowing’ capacity for these as content. The whole of creation is just a content 'of' knowing. To know ‘knowing’ or ‘what’ we are, something has to make such a ‘knowing’ as a content, in terms of an ‘objective’ experience or content to ‘the knowing’. That's the limit that knowing can take itself to be. The only way knowing can make ‘a’ content is to make something register to memory.  Memory is content. Time is content. All that can register to memory is content known. But knowing is so busy in knowing that there is no process to make 'the knowing process' a content, of such a process. So its a simple impossibility. We already know that we can know. Somehow the contents come with its own colour of right and wrong. So all content that points to what we are, has the label coloured 'wrong' if read correctly. So we can call of the search. The searching mechanism, or seeking or longing, are all effects of grasping the content in order to seek the context, which is somehow is known to be 'what we are'. The grasping mechanism is the play of Life. Life is the potential and the mechanism of knowing and Life is the knowing of content. All there is –is Life, as Knowing mechanism. It isn’t a you or a me. So knowing of what we are not has to go until the ‘we’ sense that makes such a longing, go or fade away. Then what is ‘known’, is a presence that presents an absence of a separate ‘me’ and also has a lovable experience about such absence, as never experience before as a content in memory, as if experience by this body –mind. When such unique experience happens, the whole mental activity, based on duality, drains to the background. Still is unfolded in the foreground and there is a big peace and relaxation of the burden of  a notional 'me'. Life still apparently goes on, as if all that is happening is on a mental plane. So all is well. Nothing is happening.