57. Awareness, Focus of awareness and Memory

Awareness is aliveness. This creation is alive, in terms of knowing it as an experience. The knowing of Creation is the Creation in the knowing. Or knowing of content feels as if content to knowing, even though knowing is all there is but feels like content is all there is and knowing of it is unspoken about, to hide the fact that contents are just the knowing of IT.
So Awareness is a Potential and consciousness is a way that experiencing physically happens to register in memory. So experiencing to memory, is by use of consciousness, as if consciousness was playing out subject object format in experiecing content of creation. Creation needs a fromat to experience itself or know itself. It cannot experience itself, unless it plays out one object of creation as a subject to other objects of creation. So it spreads a web of consciousness so that the arising in consciousness is happening as of to some one.
There is link between Awareness, focus of awareness or attention and memory. That is how life works, ‘seemingly’  ‘to’ this human form. For example, take a conversation with your friend or relative. Imagine that he is talking to you and you are listening. It is not possible to be 100% attentive to all of the conversation. The 'focus of attention' may shift in awareness to some external sounds or thoughts. While this is happening, even though there is an awareness of the friend talking, you have missed out, that portion of speech, when the focus was elsewhere. What does this mean?, You are unable to recall, the portion of unfocused speech from memory, of what the friend said. So the focus of attention or simply attention in awareness is a mechanism for storage into memory.  Storage to memory is what seems to give reality to perception, as it can be recalled from memory, as if real. The rest, seems illusory, as if, no-one noticed it happening.  So if there was no focus at all, on any part of the appearance in awareness, all of IT was an illusion and the reality, within the illusion, seems to be the that part of the illusion, which we can say is memorable. If reality, depends ONLY on memory, or ability to recall, then, it is totally a BELIEVED way of accepting reality, What IS –cannot be illusion or reality, because both reality and unreality is still within what is happening, and what is happening is THIS, which awareness is as consciousness, playing out what is happening as THIS.  

Memory is a set of meaningful experiences. Meaning making is the experience itself. Even when someone is talking, the meanings of the speech  is ‘the experience’. Without meaning there is no experience. Many times, a meaning is made, as if to mean, meaningless. Without meanings, there is no recording to memory of any such happening. More the meaning, better the experience and better the memory. Memory is nothing but a set of experiences and experience is nothing but a set of meaningful activities, arising in awareness, saved as memory. Also , meanings can only happen, when there is focus ( which can be only be for a small part of wholeness) and so can be considered as nothing but areas of  focus, to the appearances in awareness.

The design of all experiences are based on a mechanism, that the experience is seemingly happening ‘to’ an entity. Life features itself ‘as an entity, by means of ‘focus’ of attention, as if a separate entity with freewill and choice, has a capacity to focus. The focus of attention, seems to be the ‘focus-er’ of attention , as a separate entity, that is seemingly capable of doing this. The experiences or meanings are regarded happening to someone called ‘me’.

Meaning making of appearance or part of appearance is another name for story making of seemingly, what is happening, as if, from  a personal point of view. When such meaning happens automatically, it ‘feels’ as if a ‘person’ also is happening to this body, automatically, as its complimentary meaning.  It is a play of life, featuring ‘this’ person, as if separate from life, that can ‘see’ life as separate from this entity.  The splitting of wholeness into ‘separation’ is the illusory play of ‘Life’s intelligence, to create a separate focus attention, on its own play, thereby, making many many meanings or stories, out of wholeness, which is the ‘nature’ of the play.

Meaning making is for memory. To make meaning, time and space is used as a illusory factor. Out of sight, is still ‘believed’ to be within ‘mental sight’ or imagination. Within a mental acceptance as ‘at another place in space. So space ‘gets built up in memory. Duration of events as recorded to memory, giving a ‘feel’ of sequence, within memory. So the whole of time and space is the ‘meaning maker of memory’.  All objects in wholeness, seem to be constantly changing their formats of appearance.  Subjecting these formats to memory, with time-space meaning gives a ‘feel’ of ‘real story’ to such appearances in awareness.

So the whole Universe is a ‘cooked up’ story of illusion that is constantly in a flux of change, and the ‘feel’ of the story, becomes the feel of reality. Since ‘Life’ as a human form, behaves as if, meaning is happening to him, as a relationship to the outside world, a feeling of entity ‘seems’ to continuous. 

This ‘feel’ of separation, is only a play in awareness and when such separate focused meaning falls away, of the illusion that is happening, a new pattern arises. In the new pattern, there is no focus of attention on any particular portion in awareness. The whole appearance ‘seems’ to appear, with wholeness itself as focus. Since such wholeness cannot become a story, there is no recording of such event to memory. Without recording to memory, it ‘seems’ it is happening to ‘no-one’. Also there is no sense of time in this format, because time was only a creation for the recall in memory, as if there was a sequence to recording to memory. Now this state of perceiving wholeness, seems timeless and spaceless due to non-focus and non-recording to memory. The mind soon tries to make meaning of this non-focus, as if , it could be a new way of focus, may be without time and space, which could be a new way of making making to memory. Then the new ‘feel’ of entity comes back as if a new type of experience is being recorded. This new type of sensing wholeness comes without a strong sense of separation of the fictional entity. The true nature of creation is then witnessed as wholeness, wherein all ‘persons’ are ‘known’ to be a illusory for the purpose of feeling separate and to experiencing individual stories.  This becomes a biggest joke, that creation seems to be playing on itself. However the new pattern of sensing wholeness has ‘Lovable’ feel.