104. Existence ‘in’ reality.

Let us analyse what we mean by something that ‘exists’.

We see objects around us, hear sounds etc and say that they exist. They only point towards our existence more than theirs. So we need to go a little deeper.

When we say all that around us is real and exists,  we are into the game of subject – object.  There is a ‘me’ that is the subject and there is other than me that is the ‘world’ which exists factually, as my object.

What is not ‘me’ is the world and what is not the world is ‘me’. So we demarcate ‘me’ and the world as separate and real. However, without me, there is no experience of the world and so ‘no world’. Similarly, without the world, you can’t experience this ‘me’, that we think we are. This means, there is something that need to be understood here deeply. Experience of the world, includes the ‘me’ness to this body and otherness to other forms which forms the ‘world’. However, an inside me and outside other can't exist independent of each other.

So subject and object is indivisible aspect of each other like a smile and a face and the way we imagine life as we have believed it to be, with such a separation is only an idea or a concept, like the equator.

So what are we and what is the world? This is like asking what is the relation between subject and object? Subjects and objects do not exist in and by themselves, separate from each other. There isn't anything like subject separate form object. That is a myth and also our direct experience.

We only know the objectivity of objects but think they exist as real and separate from 'us'. That which knows these objective reality, as its content, is the subject or ‘me’ or ‘I am’, in the real sense. Now in order to know the subject, such a subject must become the content of knowing, or an object of itself,  which is an impossibility, as this would then need to have a subject to know it. So, since only objects are really existing and since subject cannot be an object, subject cannot exist. If subject does not exist, then subject and object being one unitary phenomenon, objects also cannot exist, in the sense that we always wanted something to be existing. So nothing exists as real existence.

Pure existence is the only thing that really doesn't exist. Other types of sensations arising in consciousness, which seem objective to another objective object, is a magical play in and of creation.

So ‘me’ as an object is not what I am. I as a subject, doesn't have an objective reality. So why worry about what is happening. Happening is happening by itself, as if you and me. Life is living itself as multiplicity of sensations to itself, making believe an objective world to itself, and aslo behaving as an objective subject called ‘me’. So nothing is happening to who or whatever you really are. This is paradoxical, but a fact. All facts objectively exists, which doesn't mean a thing. This fact also is included in it, which also doesn't mean a thing. So all is well, but for no-one.

So all there could only be - is subjectivity or what we could be or what we are, appearing as objectivity or  'all there is' or what is happening.

All so very simple.